=> well, i am so tired... i just got home from megamall to have a lesson in figure skating ... whew ***  i fell down twice ... it's really a big OUCH...!!! grrr ... 

=> well i really miss MY PRINCE ... and aw!  he's on line  ... it's really hard for us because we have a different time slot... now we're talking ... be ryt back ... i am goin to talk to my prince first ... lol ...   (AFTER 5MINS) he logged out, and i am goin to continue what i am writing here in my none sense blog ... lol ... so, where are we ...?! yeah, it's really hard, because he's not here and i am not there (ofcourse!) hihi ... we are miles away ... huhu ... how i wish that u r here at my side, i wana hug u tyt and kiss u, hmmm ... well, just a wish, lol ... sooo ... hmmm ... i am happy now, atlist we talked even just for a very short time ...

=> so, what else happened to me ...?! hmmm, after my lesson when i was about to bring my very big roller bag up to the over pass one guy asked me if i can do it, and i answered him "ofcourse! im not gonna bring this bag if i cant,grrr" then i was shocked when he answered me "fine if u dont want me 2 help u, i didnt know that it was to easy for u" ... so i said "nevermind, thanx anyway, go ahead ..." sooo, when i am about to ride to the taxi then he pushed me and said that he is the one who owned the taxi, grrr!!! he really want me to get mad ... temper temper temper ...!!! but he let the taxi go, but he payed the driver ... maybe he's crazy ... then he was talking to me again, so i talked to him, he asked me why i bring bag like that, a very big roller bag, so i answered him " none of ur business... would u just go and stop talking to me, i am not talking to strangers..." (but i was talking to him already,lol) ... so well thank God, he stopped ... then i called the taxi again ... whew *** he was trying to do what he did a while ago but he failed to do it, because i am so tired and i really wana go home, and i am gonna kick his ass if he did it again ... instead he asked for my no. and offered a ride to his car ... well i am not crazy to go with the person i dont know ... so, i just told him " no, thank u..." ... so he did'nt stopped, grrr, he asked for my no. again, sooo, i gave him a no. and then he told me that now i can go ... "hahaha, sooo, bye bye and at last i am goin home, hey one more thing, i dont know who's the owner of that no. just ask him or her who is she  ... bye assholeee ..."

~*~ i miss my bed and Xheuwiz is also calling me, he needs milk, hehehe, so bye bye ... bhabie xheuwiz, mommie is cominggg ... ~*~

I sat and watched the tree in my front yard... I wonder, how many sides of me has it seen so far...?! As a kid, on my bike playing with friends, Never worrying when life would end... In middle school, playing the fool... Trying to get the attention of that boy I knew... I thought I had it all figured out by those high school front doors... Excited about independence, new friends and so much more... Getting leaner and developing into a woman, Not knowing that my childhood was about to end... I wasn’t aware because I didn’t care! My parents worked so hard, and watched me grow... But I had a big secret, I was sure they wouldn’t want to know... Time came fast when the truth was revealed. “Get out of my house! Your youth is the only thing he’ll steal!” “Why, why did you do this to us!” “It was our fault, for putting in so much trust!” “Can’t you see you’re just a child yourself?” “and I bet you expect our help!” They never imagined their little princess doing such a thing But then again, I never imagined myself pushing a swing... For my child, And me…. ONLY FOURTEEN... The disappointment is beyond meaning I saw all of my dreams diminishing….fleeing...!!! But it happened, and for a reason is what I can only repeat Because such an accident has helped me to get on my own two feet. As well as bringing me down to my own two knees. And if only that tree could see me It might have warned me... But looking back, I wouldn’t change a thing, Because my child has molded me….. into me.

~*~ I remember when i am doin this ... that was a yr ago ... i am doin this with tears ... and now, when i am reading this, my tears are here again ... ~*~

~*~ i love my son so much and i dont have any regrets having him in my life even though i had him in a wrong time... i would never take it back, i wouldnt change a thing and everything happens for a reason... i dont think i would be alive now if i hadn't had my son... He saved my life... As far as having him so young, i think he's the reason i am so much more together than a lot of people my age... i have my priorities straight and for some people it can take a while to get there... Some people proably miss their social life, but u get a new social life and u realize that the time u spend with ur child is really precious, and they really enjoy it and totally benefit from u,so there's no loss, AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED...hmmm, well, i know, i can raise him without anyones help ... i know i can...!!! I CAN...!!! i did the gewd job 0n the first step, i know i can finish those steps gr8fully... i graduated my junior level by my own, by myself, and my parents are so happy for me, because i am now here, imagine a 14yrs old gurl working for herself just to finish her studies and to raise her son, it felt so gewd to see my parents so happy... i actually made them proud and that was an accomplishment all in it's own ... It has been a tough journey thus far but I’ve learned so much about myself, I am independent, I could care less about who thinks what about me, and I live with my back straight and my head held high... I know I’m the bearer of my own destiny, and just because this bump occurred on my smooth highway, don’t mean my dreams can’t come true. I believe if you stay positive, good things are sure to come... people also keep on asking me if i regret having sex with the father of my child but the weird thing is not, i really dont because he gave me the greatest gift of all "my lil me" and I will always thank him for that because my bhabie has given me a reason to live ... I’m more ambitious than ever, and I have a light at the end of my tunnel... Life isn’t over just because I became a mother at 14. I’ve learned thus far that men will come and go, but KRIZSTIAN MARCO XHEUWIZ will never betray me or stop loving me, and that’s what I chose to live for, and i'll continue to live for this... For him.... For us, and only us… forever.  ~*~

~*~ dont stay with the man because he's the father ...!!!  If your relationship is not what you dreamed it to be and your boyfriend makes you feel bad about yourself in any way,  then try to find the strength with in yourself and leave... If I could do it, anyone can...  There is some one out there searching/waiting for you... To love you and your child... You don't want to pass him by, now do you...?! ~*~

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.

I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size

But when I try to tell them,

They think I'm telling lies.

I say,

It's in the reach of my arms,

The span of my hips,

The stride of my step,

The curl of my lips.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's Me.

I walk into a room

Just as cool as you please.

And to a man,

The fellows stand or

Fall down down on their knees.

They swarm around me,

A hive of honey bees.

I say,

It's the fire in my eyes,

And the flash of my teeth,

The swing of my waist,

And the joy in my feet.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman.

That's me.

Men themselves have wondered

What they see in me.

They try so much

But they can't touch

My inner mystery.

When I try to show them

They say they still can't see.

I say,

It's in the arch of my back,

The sun of my smile,

The ride of my breasts,

The grace of my style.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Now you understand

Just why my head's not bowed.

I don't shout or jump about

Or have to talk real loud.

When you see me passing

It ought to make you proud.

I say,

It's the click of my heels,

The bend of my hair,

The palm of my hand,

The need for my care.

'Cause I am a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

well, as usual ... i have a sunday class ... i am so tired, i just came home from a very long travel ... i went to makati (powerbooks) ,then megamall (national, powerbook and goodwill), then ATC (powerbooks and national bookstore) then festival mall (national bookstore) ... whew *** i forgot to drop by sa recto ... i am lookin for my College Algebra book ... damn that author ... paimportante cya huh?! well, i have a long test kz in Algebra tomorrow that's why i am forced to look for that book ... but sadly, i didnt found any ... whew ***

hmmm, i dunno what is this feeling ... i just cant explain ... hayyy ... life ... i dunno ... i am sad ... i am not feeling well ... hmmm ... hayyy ... well i think this is not making any sense ... sooo ... better say good bye ... and just goodluck for me ... whew ***

sooo ... what happened this whole day ...?!

well, a very boring day ... actually nag ka-sense lang ng konti because of my prince, kz nakausap kew cya ... whew *** prelim is cominggg and i feel nervous ... yeah, i am still in my adjusting stage, di pa akew maka-ayos sa studies kew ... hayyy, why there are people who are really tryin hard to make sense to others, (cant relate?! sorry ka!) You know ...?! the gurls who are PATHETIC LOSERS SOCIAL CLIMBING BITCHES, TRYIN HARD PARTY PEOPLE...!!! u can also see this line to my friendster account ... i hate those gurls, i really really really hate them ... so, u bitch, stop begging me ... i dont want you to be my friend ... after all u've done, now u r there asking me to be your friend ... are u crazy ...?! grrr... aw gurl, u always make me feel very happy everytime i see you ...why dont u ask me if ::::

1) what perfume ang ginagamit kew? (PARA HINDI KA NAHIHIRAPAN PUMILI KUNG ALIN DON)

2) where kew binili pants,tops, bags and accessories kew, from what store, how much, etc... (SANA IF U WANT TO GAYA-GAYA ME, CHANGE THE COLOR NAMAN PARA HINDI OBVIOUS, RYT?! )

3) who's my former manager? (SO THAT U R NOT MUKA'NG TANGA NA SASABIHIN MO NA U R ALSO ONE OF MY CO-MODELS BEFORE AND U R PRESENTING THIS OR THAT OR WHATSOEVER)

4) what's my background?! ( SO THAT IF SOMEONE ASKED YOU AGAIN ABOUT ME, U KNOW NA UNG RYT NA ANSWER MO ... )

5) what dictionary ang bezfwend kew, PARA MAGAYA MO NG MAAYOS UNG ACCENT KEW, LIKE THE LINE NA NAKUHA MO FROM ME NA ALWAYZ NA NARIRINIG NG LAHAT SAU NOW ... "why dont u try the body shop chiq blush ...?! " "aw really?!" "sooooo...?!" "yeah, i know it..." "i dont think so..." "i dunno..." EVEN THE WAY SA PAG ANSWER KEW SA FON: "yes?! hi..."

AND LASTLY : (na talaga'ng kinainis kew!) SANA U ASKED ABOUT THE STORY, U ALSO WANT TO BE FRINCEZZ DIN BA?! JUST TELL ME AND IT'S ME WHO WILL HELP YOU TO HAVE A GEWD STORY DIN ... I ONLY HAVE ONE QUESTION?! (IN TAGALOG NA HUH?!) MAY UTAK KA BA?!!!

if akew un, parang nakaka-shy nman, kz that simple words, to think na everyone is using it naman, kaya lang parang it's not normal na, na everytime na may makasabay ka lang sa launge na nag re-retouch, eh sasabihin mo na ung line na "why dont u try the body shop chiq blush?!", aw ... hayyy... and sana wala ung mga tao na nakarinig nong conversation ntn n0n para di ka nila masabihan na "WALANG ORIGINALITY"  SAME WITH THE STORY THAT U COPIED AND CHANGE THE NAMES... NEXT TYM BIATCH, MAKE IT SURE NA DI MAKAKARATING DON SA ORIGINAL HUH...?! DAMN...! IT'S A REAL STORY, NOT JUST A FAIRY TALE ... WELL, NICE WORK NA HINDI MO D2 SA INTERNET KINALAT NA STORY MO YAN, UN LANG SHUNGA KA NA MAY SUBSCRIBER AKEW D2 SA BLOG KEW NA NIYABANGAN MO JAN SA STORY NA YAN! AW, SOOO, U R NOW A NEW FRINCEZZ, SO WHO'S UR PRINCE ...?! C JEYPIE ...?! HAHAHA ... U WISH ...

hey by the way, i made it in TAGALOG na with some ENGLISH lang, baka di mo kz maintindihan ... grrr ...

*** FOR ALL THE READERS ***

 ~*~ My apology ... i am not really using that bad terms/words, pero sobra na kz ... i have my own life and she have her own, why dont she make her own style, her own story of her life, i dont care if it really happened to her or just a fairy tale or whatsoever, i care a lot for this mess because i am involve, in fact akew ung affected talaga, kz others myt think that it's me na nang-gaya sknya ... hell ...!!! i really dunno what to do with her ... actually, i forgot about it na, di kew na lang cya pinapansin everytime our path cross ... kaya lang, just this morning, i am so shock when one of my blog subscriber (she's also one of my frend sa school) called me and asked me if kanino ba talagang story ung princess and prince na un ... so, ofcourse, cnabi kew sknya na akin un and it's me who made it (high tone) ... then un, she told me na everything, un nga, that BITCH, MARIA CLAUDETTE DE GUZMAN 4TH YR STUDENT OF UNIV. OF PERPETUAL HELP SYSTEM FROM THE DEPARTMENT OF BS-NURSING ... is a great pretender and impostor ... pinapakita nya sa mga frends nya and blockmates ung story na un ... pinalitan lang nya ng names ... !!! ANG FANGET PA, PRINCESS MC AND PRINCE JP ... duh ...?! sana may add ka man lang kahit konti ... and maybe u thought di makakarating skn yan kz malayo ang department nyo smin, hahaha, lucky u, nabasa ng isang fwend/blog subscriber kew ... kz that frend of mine asked me yesterday about that story if it's true, and tuwang-tuwa cla kz nga c "my prince kew" napagkamalan akew'ng gay ... hayyy ...

 I AM PRETTY SURE NA MABABASA NI BITCH TO, KZ I FOUND OUT NA MEMORIZE NYA PALA ALL MY ACCTS, MAYBE PATI UNG "ABOUT ME" PART KEW, COPY PASTE DIN NYA SKNYA...!!! GRRR ... AYYY GRABE, IDOL BA...?! THANK U HUH...!!! OH COPY PASTE MO DIN TO, AND TELL EVERYONE NA MAY NG-GAGAYA SAU... FUCK U, ASSHOLE ...!!!